Six years ago, I found myself five years into a job that was making me ill. I was stressed, exhausted and losing weight, and as much as I'd heard the “you're lucky to even have a job”, “it’s the wrong time to be looking for a new job” etc., I couldn’t shift the unhappiness, longing and frustration that I felt. The job I once loved had become unrecognisable, and I was screaming inside.
Six months later, I finally found the courage to apply for new jobs, and was offered a post in a similar field. Momentary delight soon followed acute concern. Alarm bells crept in, and I was confused; why do I feel the same way? My concerns were short lived as fate played a hand. Two weeks after I'd started my new role, the company went into liquidation, and I was out of a job. After initial numbness, blaming and cursing, I was overcome with an incredible emotion that I had not experience for some time; relief. Yes relief.
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Her actions are well intentioned, and she is in fact, wonderful at keeping me safe. But, sometimes she gets in my way.
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February 2022
CategoriesPermission to be vulnerableFear of making the wrong decisionThe Space Between Perfection and AuthenticityBetween fearing the unknown, and the career you're unhappy in.A Moment in NatureFear of Not having enough Money |